Restrictions

There’s always a flame burning in everyone. The sizes of the flames differ from one another. All burn for a passion. A hope that this passion will turn into reality one day. It’s not easy to maintain this flame. It flickers whenever there are motion around it. It’s even more challenging to ensure the flame to burn for a life time.

My flame is burning, awaiting for the day that I could fulfill my dream. It’s hard to fuel this flame when I have other commitments at the same time. The flame become smaller when boundaries and limitations are set on me.

I never like restrictions set upon me. It’s suffocating. With boundaries, there are things that I could or could not do.

I long for freedom, where my mind can set free and wander to a place where it solely belongs to me. This is the ultimate goal which I am wildly chasing after. My flame burns brightly for my dream. One day, I will be able to live with it. E.

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I’m back…

Heya! I am back. Well… the renovation at home is completed, but now I am busy with house chores. It’s just an excuse to stay away from my laptop. Nevertheless, I can’t resist the temptation to set up my laptop and blog.

To be honest, I am feeling tired these few days. Work has been draining quite an amount of my energy. Brain cells were killed during the process. I do not have the energy to think about “Cats in Crime” and other creative works. Inspiration comes in slow. That’s pretty much explain why “Cats in Crime” came to a halt. I do have a few more drawings yet to be digitalised. However, it is no longer a 365 days project. I will still try my best to draw as many as I can, because drawing keeps me sane.

Negative thoughts aside. The haze issue in Singapore is turning for the better. The PSI is below 100 now. However, I am looking forward to the day when the air is fresh again. Other than the haze, my life is pretty much filled up with activities. They are keeping me busy and happy. At the same time, I am planning a birthday getaway in September. I want to visit Hong Kong! I miss that place A LOT!

Alright… that’s all for now. Let’s hope I will be consistent in my updates. 🙂 E.

Chasing After Dreams

Have you ever have the sudden urge to quit your job right now and chase after your dreams? Have you ever felt so suffocated due to all the restrictions and boundaries that you wish just run away? Have you ever hope to drop everything that is on your hand now and do literally nothing?

I do. However, I didn’t have the courage to do any of those. There are too many things that are stopping me from chasing my dreams. I could only work towards it slowly.

“Only when you lose everything, then you will gain freedom.”

I wonder when would I have both the urge and courage to risk it all in exchange for freedom. Is freedom really that hard to seek for? What would you do if you are in my shoes? E.

Dear Esther

Dear Esther,

When you read this message, I want you to forget everything in Singapore and enjoy your holiday. You are flying to Taiwan with Laureen. Yay! Hopefully, you did not complain about the budget airline and learn to appreciate that you get to go overseas. Enjoy and embrace the culture, scenes and the beauty of the country. Bring back all the wonderful memories and pictures. Do not overspend. If you do not have time to take photos, it’s ok as these images will etch in your memory for long. Gain inspiration and continue to think of ideas for your portfolio. I know you should be relaxing and enjoying, but this is a great chance to open your mind to the unexpected too. Push yourself! You can do it. Most importantly, please look after yourself, especially your diet and health. Stay healthy and strong. I look forward to meet a better and fresher you. 🙂

Love,
Esther from the past.
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Reassurance

Humans, we all need reassurance. However, there is a limit to it. Imagine this scenario, person A kept asking the same question about himself everyday. Person B, C, D… were nice and said there’s nothing wrong with him. However, A never seems to get that into the brain and keep whining. Shouldn’t A do something about his confidence level? Or is A just looking for an ego boost? If it’s about boosting one’s ego, isn’t it a form of moral turpitude? I wonder how much “reassurance” does a person need and how much can a person give. Tell me about it. E.